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The Confused Mind of a Young Hedonist

by Terra Alive

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Gian Rodriguez Such an emotional album, with engaging instrumental work. Vocals may take a little getting used to- but after a listen, you'll want to jump right back into this rollercoaster. Favorite track: Health Class College Course.
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1.
Camping 04:33
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Take a long walk on a short pier And Lose the fact I live on planet Earth with you I know you think the sun don't shine until your ass wakes up So I change your name in my phone to "Never Text This Person Back" Give me an ear I swear to God I gotta tell you something How did we end up having something special next to nothing Sorry for the times fighting, then apologizing, and crying deny the fact that we'd be happier this way again Can I hear your voice? Why can't we let it be You want to rejoice, and live in mental harmony Are you fond of me? 'Cuz yeah you're humping me All I wanted was for you to stay loving me Open the Box and pour out the wine Let's take a trip to the Beach in the Middle of the night I don't wanna talk, I just wanna touch I don't wanna think, I just wanna drink I don't wanna plan ahead in the future, Let's just have some fun in the present I can't hear you for too long(unless you invite me to your bed) Your body is shaking, I can't believe it, I've been here waiting, why is this fading, I was here, where were you? Girl you know your body's got me throwing hunids hunids hunids hunids It was your plan, all along, to get me drunk, with you alone, you sexted me at twelve o'clock, and I replied "Don't touch my cock!" Where does our road go, I can't see the end You force me to lay wide a wake in your bed You use me for sex I use you to have someone to talk to when I'm all alone I'm drowning in all of these things I'm losing you, like I'm losing myself in a lack of conversation Does it lack of something else? My endeavors, are the times you tried to sever What is happy? What is sad? Do I truly feel either one? I'm really glad I decided to stay sober tonight either way. Past are you checking up on me? Just in case you are, what I do I shall tweet. The scratches on my back, and the bags under my eyes: that's enough signs to show that you're just not healthy for me. You don't even have the courage to text me unless you're drunk.
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Bad Luck 04:38
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Cul-de-sac, my life is like a cul-de-sac No going straight, no turning back The driver of this car knew, where we were in fact I wish she would've told me that Where the hell is my cold heart at? Once you mentioned that there would be beer, I jumped into your car, and we drove very far How do I get my self caught up in you again? I had a dream, that everything would be alright It came in the form of a girl, she could rock my fucking world I know this girl, she's been around for all my life I fell in love with the thought of her, ever since we kissed that night But oh, she don't like me much The only reason that we kissed because we were so drunk And you came around with your liquor propositions Your pale skin asian eyes, cute little lips, I need to sit, how could someone of a beautiful nature make me slip And of course as you grew older you had more boys up on your shoulder, bathe in the attention that they gave, my heart is growing colder The older we got, every little kiss we had made it harder and harder, that's why I always wanted you back Back in my sweaty palms are you ready for me to sing you to sleep Angry and sad, lustful and mad, your feelings for me, my feelings for you, lost and confused, what can i do, but just move on and start a new Say nasty things that were never meant, and now I'm full of regret, and those teary eyes redefined my perspective, but I've got no safety net And I'm very sorry for, tear drops that I made you pour, your tears created an ocean, and i'm washed up on the shore And now I walk and rome, thinking about it all alone, never thought it would be like this, in the heat of your bed while making you sweat I don't think you can handle my voice right now I'll be upset with you, until I find someone else.
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Donna Troy 04:34
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Let the stars align in the way that they're meant to be, I'll never force to love again The nights we spent as hedonists, in your car, making love, I'll never forget I'm on one tonight, meeting strangers in an empty pool, and you're still stuck in Bakersfield And when I wake up in the morning, no missed calls, just a text that says, "I hope you're ok, I hope you stay safe" The love that we had, when we were fifteen Where did it go, was it just a dream? The wine that we drink encourages us to chase feelings that don't exist anymore If only me and you could have our own world A place where no one else could judge the things that we do A place where slutty girls and horny douche bags would not exist; I'll kill them on my own A Place were we can have our separate fun, and not have insecurities of touching someone else A Place where it's not simply seeking pleasure, but we both know there's a deeper meaning to it all If only me and You could have our own world, I'd make the sweetest love to you, every fucking night And Cuddle you so close I'll break your ribs, But that's okay you can have some of mine A place just by the beach where we'll get married, and later have sex like it depended on our lives 9 months later, you'll be having babies, Every night I'll sing you to sleep
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Health Class College Course 03:33
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My mom told me I should write songs to praise girls, that's what people want to hear But every girl inside my world has made me lose faith in them all together So I cry and I shout and I wine and I pout, about every bitch that lied and said they loved me, fucked my friends and said they're sorry, faked a baby, said they need me Pretty faces, so misleading Girls need love just as much as boys need to put their dick in something Anything so I don't explode, you will do for now Here's a secret, can you keep it? I'll say one thing but don't always mean it Beautiful girl you've got powers Beautiful girl you're a fraud I can be just as bad I know this This can be just a teen obnoxious phase I know every little side to you: the good, the bad I'm drunk even after I promised you I won't, oh well Me thinks, that the fine lady doth protest too much I have a better idea: You calm down, I leave You better fucking miss me, you better miss I can do this on my own I'm gunna fucking miss you, I'm gunna miss you I can't do this own my own Fuck you, you stupid bitch You're a hedonist girl, trying to play "Mommy", just to escape your hedonist world
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The Drowning Ghost 06:53
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Since I was a little boy I couldn't wait to fall in love The movies that my mother showed taught me everything I need to know Give her everything you have Sacrifice a world for her If she says that nothing's wrong, chase her down no matter how long I ditched my friends, to hang with you Snuck out at night, to lay with you That summer night, in 2009, at 2:15, I touched your thighs You placed my hands, right on your breasts As we made out, in between breaths You questioned if, I'd ever stop, stop loving you, as if I knew Days went by and you kissed another boy Weeks went by and you kissed another Years after yeah you kissed another boy Where was I when you kissed another boy? The whole time you told me you loved me Kissed me like scenes in a movie Cute little notes between classes How could you lie to me, cheat on me? You lie to me, Cheat on me Ever since you did, I haven't been the same Since I was a little girl, Daddy told me wait around Don't you ever stand for boys They will always let you down Always know that you're the queen, don't forget to wear the crown Gracefully I walked the line, and then you caught me with your smile With you I was more than a child Your downtown charm, so Lion wild I left my crown on bedside tables Believed your lies, my mind disabled I thought that we, were meant to be To you I was just another thing And with glazed eyes, I couldn't see, all demons that you hid from me Days went by and I became your toy Weeks went by you became a different boy Years went by, now I don't know you boy Now darling, don't go all coy The whole time you told me you loved me Kissed me like I was your queen But there were parts of you, I'd never seen Now I don't know what to believe You lie to me, Cheat on me Ever since you did I haven't been the same We have a huge barrel of wine, but no cups to drink it We drink anyways, and get drunk enough to spit words to fill buckets to throw at the foot of God We dance to our own music Sweat hair and finger tips Lips skin and shaking hips We have a huge barrel of wine and no cups to drink it, and they say to us, "You have NO future" And they're correct, no one can tell us the future The fortune Teller lies thin and dead on the floor and no one gets their fortune told anymore Baby I lie to you, I cheat on you even though we did, it's "us" we really want

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Big thank you to Kris Holland, Yvette Young, Welcome to Limerick, Hail the Sun, Kyle Moreno, Holiday Coles, and especially Jarrett Alarcon and Ryan Christianson for all that they have provided for this ep. It would be nothing without them.

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released November 22, 2012

Andres Aparicio: Guitars, Piano, Keys, Vocals
Jarrett Alarcon: Bass, Vocals
Ryan Christianson: Drums
Track 1-5 recorded at Rocketship Recording Studios in Bakersfield, CA
Engineered, Mixed, and Mastered by Kris Holland
Bonus track recorded at sonnyt69studios
Cover Art by Yvette Yvodo Young
Final Story Records

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